August 18, 2022
Today is a tea type of day. I’m hungry, just got back (facepalm) well not just got back to the office. Been back to the building about an hour now. Just got back to my office after having a conversation with a coworker who said to others that I was disrespectful to him. He said nothing to me about it. Eventually I called him and told him that I was hearing things so please say what the issue is that he has with me. The discussion went on for almost forty minutes. At the end of the day, I was accused of words I did not say so he was upset at me. I asked him then why didn’t he come and speak to me? I’ve always been straight. If I have a problem with someone, I go to them. His response? He sent a message that I should talk to him. Honestly I got the message and in my mind was like, “what childish behaviour is this?” and had no intention of going to him. I know. I’m horrible. I confess. But eventually decided to humble myself or be the bigger person (whichever one you prefer or another term altogether). We both apologised. Will see where it goes from here.
I’m tired though, hence the tea. Haven’t even had lunch yet and it’s after two. Sigh. I should eat.
Cut the Ropes
Yahweh, I am terrified of what I think you are asking me to do. In my mind I’m literally going between tears and this is going to be an awesome testimony. But what if? I’m sorry. I do know when you are speaking. And I guess this is the definition of “cut the ropes.” Yahweh, even if it doesn’t work out the way I may imagine, I’m stepping out in you. On you. On your word and trust that you won’t let me fall. Keep me in your will. I love you.
James 2:17 – In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.
I can’t say that you are good and faithful if I can’t trust you to be good and faithful. And confession: I’ve heard so many stories of how you did it for others, but part of me feels like maybe you won’t do it for me. I guess this is actually a test of my faith. I will trust you and even if I fall, I will cry, but I will still trust you.
“Teach me how to love you. Show me how to trust you.
More than with my words or with a song.”
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