Being Stuck

The words "Stand Still" written in white on a purple background

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February 5, 2023

11:04 am : In my car getting ready to go to the office (on a Sunday)

I will do over the cover. It’s just too loose. I’m truly not comfortable giving that as a representation of my work.

1:50 pm : at my desk at work

Yahweh, thank you for sending an angel to help Mom. because I don’t even know what I would have done. Thank you for your providence, your grace. For who you are.

What happened? The vehicle got a flat tyre while Mom was driving. She made it to a tyre shop but they were closed. However, a gentleman who was close by and saw what happened, stopped and put on the spare tire for her. Thank you.

6:00 pm

Yahweh, thank you for today. For the encouragement to speak up. For your grace and protection. For seeing Mom safely to have the tyre repaired. Yahweh, I pray for the strength not to worry about tomorrow. To focus on you. You are my source and my goal. You are God. Let your will be done Yahweh. Amen.

8:34 pm : in my bed, hoping to sleep without crying.

I am thankful, grateful. I also feel like “Stand Still” equates to being stuck. I am not in the same place I was last year this time. But in some ways, it feels like I’ve stepped back. In other ways I feel like I’ve run forward.

Spiritually, I feel like a champion even though I want to cry, Because I know the plans that Yahweh has for me. I know that he is good. I know that he is love.

Physically, it feels like nothing is happening and at times I wonder. But I pray that what he said he will do, he will do. I pray for your strength to trust you, because I am weak. I am in need of you. I don’t yet know how to do anything, but I also think that I need to speak up about things that are delayed. Yahweh help me to know what I should. To discern truth from lies. To know you better everyday.

Part of the Dream (Bakery)

Even though I did somethings prematurely before marriage (took a bite of the bread), what was there disappeared and what I received was untarnished. Thank you Yahweh for your promises. That in you all things are become new. That in you, I can be satisfied. Thank you for your spirit. Cast out every bitter thought, every jealous word and help me to see you in all things. To trust you.