July 2, 2022
I want to smile, I do. But honestly sometimes attending this service kills my spirit. Help me to humble myself before you and those you have placed in authority. I know it’s not every assignment that I would like and truthfully I don’t like this one much anymore. It feels like a losing battle. Yahweh, please fight these battles for me. Help my unbelief. This church is dying. There is a chafing. I pray for the youths. It’s not that I’m bulking them altogether, but you know them all by name. You know their needs, aims, ambitions. I pray that they seek you for themselves. Help that it’s not a tug-of-war to get them to the water, but that they would follow your lead – even if reluctantly. That they would follow you. Let your will reign in their lives and may they give honour and glory to you. Thank you Yahweh for your love.Â
CONFESSION: I want to pray about my involvement in the anniversary programme. But I almost feel like I’m not in the best frame of mind.Â
Probably why I should pray about it. Yahweh, what should I do? Should I get involved? Or should I stay away? I truly don’t know what to do. This is one time, I’m asking for a sign. A definite direction on which way to turn because of myself, I want nothing to do with the programme anymore. But also of myself I don’t want the programme to fall and I do know that I can help. If they’re willing to accept the help. Thank you for hearing and advance notice, I’ll ask again if I don’t get a response. Thank you for never leaving me. I love you.Â
Singing
Which way should I go? And how should I learn what the Lord wants me to do? I asked the Lord’s will and he tells me be still.
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