February 3, 2023
3:47 pm : feeling tired but thankful
Good Morning Yahweh. How are you doing? How do you do it? Have the whole world in your hand? Thank you for having the world in your hand. Thank you for protecting us. Saving us. Correcting us. Thank you.
Your love is amazing. It truly lifts me up like nothing else. On the days when I am sad. The days when it feels like I don’t have the strength to make it: your love strengthens me like nothing else. And though I do desire the love that a spouse is supposed to have, I am eternally grateful for your love. You are amazing.
You are sustaining.
You are beyond what I can think of.
Thank you.
Okay, it’s (good) funny and amazing when I start to read something and it ties in perfectly with what I just said or prayed. The words?
“You may be lacking, but God is your strength.”
“He is enough, he is able, and he will sustain you. “
Thank you for your strength. Thank you for sustaining me.
Sustain: To cause or allow something to continue for a period of time. To keep alive. To suffer or experience, especially damage or loss. To support emotionally.
Sustain (Bible): to bear, to uphold, to hold; to keep from falling, to maintain, to suffer or undergo.
I am surprised by the “to suffer” part. But even in the times when we may suffer because of whatever reason, you are still holding and maintaining us. Thank you for all that you do/you’ve done to save us, to sustain us and to keep us in you.
This song just came back to my thoughts. I think it’s been almost a year since I’ve thought of this song. Thank you for lifting me.
2 Corinthians 4:7-9 – Our bodies are made of clay, yet we have the treasure of the Good News in them. This shows that the superior power of this treasure belongs to God and doesn’t come from us. In every way we’re troubled, but we aren’t crushed by our troubles. We’re frustrated, but we don’t give up. We’re persecuted, but we’re not abandoned. We’re captured, but we’re not killed.
Yahweh, thank you for maintaining us. I am strong when I am on your shoulders. Thank you. I love you.
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So wait: hold up. That’s heartbreaking. “You don’t attract what you want. You attract what you are.” Help me with this statement please, because I rarely attract anyone. Like in my whole 25 years of adulting, I think I’ve been asked out a sum total of six (maybe seven times). So what does that make me? That I rarely seem to attract someone? Help cause this is…nope, I’m not buying into this for me. Why? Because Yahweh also moves in a way to protect someone. Me in this case. And then, if I am one of a kind (lol, so is everyone else), then chances are the one(s) I attract wouldn’t be following the usual flow. Either. There aren’t that many of us. I’ll attract when the time is right.
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Lord Jesus, I need help. I’m doing a questionnaire, but I don’t want to answer some of the questions because of what I know the answer should be. I don’t have a lot of confidence in our leadership, but I am trying to support as best I can. I just opted out of the questionnaire. It’s not confidential and it is conflicting. I try to foster a certain environment. But what I do is vastly different from what others do and I am also part of leadership. It’s a no-win situation for me.
11:09 am : frustrated
Ever get frustrated trying to help someone? I sent something to someone. Ohhh. What am I supposed to do with that? Sigh. Then, ohhh, it’s not working. Sigh. Eventually I said they can throw it away if they want to because there isn’t anything I can do. But it made me think…maybe sometimes we don’t get help because of our own attitude. Yahweh, help me to receive help with a gracious heart. Help my family to also do so.
12:08 pm : at my desk.
Typing on the new keyboard feels strange.
