June 11, 2022
Thank you for a new day.
CONFESSION: I am so tired right now that I’m debating whether I should drive up country today. I truly don’t know what to do. I pray that as we go out today (because I know that you will be with me) that I will hear your voice. Know that it’s you because so often we love the hype and yes you are in the hype, but you are also in the quiet. Help me to appreciate the quietness. Thank you for being there at both times. At all times.
Psalm 91:1-2 – Whoever lives under the shelter of the Most High will remain in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, “You are my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust.”
My God in whom I trust. So CONFESSION: I trust you, I do. But the last couple weeks I realised that I started putting “alternatives” to some of your promises to me. It became well you did say this, but maybe you didn’t mean this part? It was as I was re-reading some things that I noticed the pattern. And it was so subtle it was scary. I literally asked myself, how did I move from conviction to maybe? And the truth is, doubts were creeping in. Latching onto parts of the promise – not the whole thing – parts and wrecking havoc.
Yahweh forgive me. For allowing doubt to undermine my trust in you. I know that doubt happens, but I can’t let doubt remove my trust in you. Help me not to lose my trust in you. Even when the situation looks bleak beyond all imagination. Even when it looks like absolutely nothing is happening in the physical toward the fulfillment of the promise. I need to trust you.
Remember Joseph: whose dream seemed impossible from the prison. But it was there the foundation was laid for it to come to pass.
Remember David: who was on the run for years.
Remember Abraham: who had to have his promise repeated six times before he saw the beginnings of it.
Remember Anna and Simeon: who waited years – daily at the temple for the ultimate promise. With no hint other than they wouldn’t die until Christ came.
When the doubt comes in, I need to remember.
My aim today? Encourage myself in the Lord. In short, be like David. Acknowledge that I’m not feeling the best and still praise Yahweh. Lol. I guess I’ll be reading Psalms today.
Breakfast: bake, tuna version of buljol, chocolate tea.
Mom came into the kitchen while I was mixing the dough. After five minutes she’s like, “Ah fine dis bake taking long to mek. Ah hungry.” She got up. When I finished with breakfast, half an hour later. Mom’s on the couch sleeping. Straight face.
Isaiah 43:2 – When you go through the sea, I am with you. When you go through rivers, they will not sweep you away. When you walk through fire, you will not be burned, and the flames will not harm you.
It’s not Psalms, it’s YouVersion verse of the day, but ah tekking it. Because this is the day that everything seems to be fighting my mind. According to Gandalf -You shall not pass!! What I am going through, Yahweh is with me. He never leaves me, even though I may feel alone. He is there. Thank you Yahweh for being here.
What Just Happened?
Like wth?!!! Tell me how, having a not so random conversation about not allowing temptation to lead you down a road that you have serious difficulty coming back. Only to see a video being sent to me. I wasn’t expecting anything strange because we usually send gospel videos to each other. Tell me why it was the equivalent of porn?!! I swiped out so fast and had a few words with them. Just no. Why would you do that?!! Like why?!!
I’m going and bathe. Get ready. Cause just no.
Thank you
And I truly have to say thank you. Because on every side, there were just encouraging words coming in. Mom had the TV on. When I passed by only to hear the pastor saying, “Even though you’re in a cave, praise him in the cave.” Essentially no matter what I’m feeling or going through, I need to keep on praising Yahweh. I will. This day. And while I look forward to the promises, I will hold on.