January 16, 2023
6:05 am – On my bed
It’s Monday. It’s also already sixteen days into the new year. W…Confession: I was going to ask what you want me to do. But I’m going to ask instead, please forgive me. For my impatience. For my insecurities. You’ve already said what I am to do in this season. Yahweh, help me to stand firm in you. To honour your word and to live by them. You are God. Not a small g God. You are the only living, only wise God. You are mighty. You are grace. You are love. And since you said to stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, I will stand still. Help me to trust you far beyond what I can see.
Soooo. Though it may seem like a random change in topic, I think I’ve decided not to kiss anyone. Because I know where it leads my thoughts and I don’t want to walk down the wrong path. Help me Yahweh to remain firm in you. Not gonna lie, it’s saddening me a bit and it’s not even like I’ve gone around kissing guys – I don’t. But being more in tune with who I am, with my body and with what you have given me, has made me truly see where the guard rail for me has to be placed. Yahweh, thank you for your help. I’m not sure how long anything will take, but I will trust you. I will keep my eyes fixed on you. And if it takes longer than I hoped, then I will choose to still trust you. I will choose to wait on you.
You are my God, my Father, my Brother, my Heart, my Friend, my Mentor, my Spirit. You are everything that I need and I will delight in watching you turn things around in your appointed time.
Watch Him Turn it – Travis Greene
Heard this song last night and it touched an unexpected chord in me. I will keep my eyes fixed on you. I love you.
When is a Thought not just a Thought?
2 Corinthians 10:5 – and all their intellectual arrogance that oppose the knowledge of God. We take every thought captive so that it is obedient to Christ.
So this is my thought. Pun intended. Ideas come, ideas go. Words come and we let them go. But when they come back again (or if they come back again), hold the thought captive. Stop. Think about the thought. Is it good? Is it pure? Is it honest? Is there virtue in it? Then don’t let it go. Actually hold the thought captive (to you). Put it under the microscope. Bring it to Yahweh and let him say whether the thought is what he truly desires for us. But if he says no, let it go. If he says not now, it’s still a let go.
If the thought is held captive and reflected upon and it’s not good or pure or honest. Then it’s also a let go. But if when we bring it to Yahweh, he says yes, hold that thought captive. Do not let it go. Help it to develop and be what Yahweh desires it to be. What we need it to be.
Holding every thought captive isn’t just about disciplining the mind to never having a negative thought (good luck with that). It’s about discerning what is right and wrong and holding on to what is right. Help us Yahweh to hold on to what is right.
