August 31, 2022
“If there isn’t the opportunity to look like a fool then it’s not faith.”
I heard this statement and it struck a chord. Because even though I believed that I’ve had faith, I’ve never “done” anything that has the potential to make me look like the biggest idiot. So today, I will keep my eyes fixed on you. I must say that the hardest part is not telling anyone. Why? Because it’s usually when you say something to someone that the help comes. All I can say is: you must definitely want to show up because there is no rich aunt or uncle to call. No savings to fall back on. Not even my parents to help. I’m surprised that they haven’t inquired yet.
Received one notice of an overdue bill.
Another was due yesterday.
Another due in two days.
And you will supply.
The cat and dog food has about one more day of feeding.
And I will praise you.
Because you are good and your mercy endures forever.
I worship you because you are my God and king.
I honour you because you hold the world in your hands.
You are merciful, compassionate, majestic, the King of kings. And (total smile) you love me. You love me. Thank you for speaking with me. Thank you for being God above all.
Btw, did you know that yesterday was the hottest recorded day for the year? I don’t think today is backward.
CONFESSION: I don’t want to be around people right now. I don’t mind being around a person, but don’t feel to be around a group. The irony is, I am meeting a group in a short while. And the bigger irony is that I am lonely at the moment: for heart to heart conversation. I was looking forward to the group, part of me still am and will go. I think I’ll go to the river before. At least I can do something about the heat, though not the lonely.
