June 25, 2022
There are some prayers that I am genuinely afraid to pray because I know that the process to answer the prayer is not going to be easy – like praying for patience. It took me a while to humble myself and pray that prayer. Today, I was like Yahweh, I need help with my road rage. The thing is, I don’t cuss out people, but I would set the face and sometimes quarrel in my car. I would be like “indicators aren’t optional.” And my face would say it all. I prayed for help and I should have known to expect the situation to rein in my road rage because on my way home – two cars standing near middle road, around a BLIND corner while another vehicle was passing them in my lane. I could not make this up if I tried. It honestly felt like Yahweh said, “I’m starting your rehabilitation at 9 (out of 10).” But I did ask for help, so Yahweh here I am, accepting your help, however you choose to do so. Thank you.
It was worse than I thought. Today I sat down to read the Bible. I had to read part of Acts on Thursday but I didn’t even bother to consider it as I was unfocused and discouraged. So today I’m reading – starting from where I had started on Thursday. Looking at it and it didn’t even seem as though I had this recently. I really was out of it.
