February 4, 2023
5:11 am :
Yahweh, thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for loving me. For dying and living to save us all. Sometimes my emotions feel weird. I don’t know how to explain it and I just want to pull into myself – away from everyone. That’s how I feel today. But I also feel like I need to be at church today. Thank you for holding me on my wonky days.
Yahweh, remember the business, the ministry. It feels like we’re at a standstill with the journals. I will trust you to lead and I will follow where you show. Keep us in your will. Thank you for never letting go.
Jeremiah 31:3 (NIV) – The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.”
Thank you.
9:50 am : Sitting in church
A funny thing happened on my way to church this morning. When I drove to the top of my hill, an individual that I’ve seen at our local church was there. It’s someone I have spoken to many times, but she usually doesn’t answer or she dodges. As I saw her on the hill, I asked if she was going to our church and wanted a ride. Her response? “They’re not using me so God sent me to a new church this year.”
It made me think: about community. Being planted in a community even if they don’t use your gifts. There have been so many times when I felt unused, maligned in the church community, but Yahweh has still asked me to stay in this community. Sometimes I am used. Sometimes not, but I am here. “A rolling stone gathers no moss.” We can’t be in community if we are not in community. Sounds weird and obvious, but it’s the truth.
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Huh. Okay, this is weird. Years ago the brother said that they were able to help this other brother. But today, I am hearing that the other brother paid for the lands. It wasn’t free.
