July 14, 2022
So a totally weird thing is happening. The FB posts are almost level with the website posts. Wow!! You know something that I’m still working on? Accepting that it’s okay to get angry but don’t sin. Mentally I still think it’s wrong to get angry. Intellectually (same thing right?) I know it’s okay, but I don’t like getting angry. I don’t like feeling frustrated. And I know it’s a part of life and it’s okay, but in my heart at times I feel guilty when I do.
Sigh. Yeah. Guilt is not of Yahweh. Conviction is. Guilt isn’t. Thank you Yahweh for calming my spirit. For not expressing my anger or frustration on anyone. Serious thank you for that.
Just saw a scripture and honestly it kinda made me pause (I’m really trying to stop say, “kinda hit me.” Lol).
Romans 4:18 – When there was nothing left to hope for, Abraham still hoped and believed. As a result, he became a father of many nations, as he had been told: “That is how many descendants you will have.”
The NIV says: Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, “So shall your offspring be.”
Because he believed – even though it seemed that the foundation was gone, even though it seemed like the promises weren’t gonna happen. He still believes, he still has hope that bound him to Yahweh and so he became. (We’ve Come This Far by Faith)
Belief allows you to become what Yahweh desires for you.
Now you are seriously teasing me. The good kind, but seriously. Here I am speaking, thinking, writing all about faith and being justified by faith only to realise that the “random sermon” that came up is about being justified by faith. I’m speechless. Well, not quite cause clearly I wrote, but wow.
“Faith isn’t defined by what we do in our weak moments.”
CONFESSION: It’s a bit discouraging. There is little engagement on the website. Sometimes I’m like I hope I am doing what you asked cause, way booiii. This is not easy. But I’m going to wait on you. I’ll keep doing what you asked. Despite how discouraging it may look. What it may look like, is not what it really is.
Sigh. I’m going home and sketch. People today, just trying my patience. Couldn’t even get away this time. I checked in with the person for this week. They have nothing planned. Okay, I’m not even stressing. Then they asked, how come they are scheduled again in September? Mind you, had a meeting where all that was discussed, but they weren’t at the meeting. Okay. I’m already helping the two persons scheduled before them because it would be their first time doing a programme. Also have an event that I am coordinating that evening. This person has not done a programme in three months and now this complaint. I couldn’t even get mad. I told them I can work out something else. They suddenly decided that it wasn’t a problem. I not about that life. It was also the roundabout way they were trying to say they don’t think they should do it. Come out and say that. Straightforward any day.
