August 3, 2022
Good Morning Yahweh. This definitely seems to be the Wednesday morning trend. I’m here! How are you this morning? I am okay. Not feeling fantastic but I am okay. I am thankful for life, for health, for strength, your promises. A home and a home, family, friends and you. I am thankful for you.
CONFESSION: There are times worry about resources threaten to creep in and the truth is even if I were to worry there is absolutely nothing that I can do. So I try to, well I do worship instead. And I say out loud that I will trust you to guide. That I will trust you to restore. That no matter what it looks like, I will choose to trust you.
So much of what we deal with everyday is a choice. We have to choose:
To get out of bed vs to sleep in late.
To spend time with you vs to go our own way.
To put on the green top vs the black top.
And so many times these choices seem inconsequential – minor even. And some are, but others are monumental even though at times it may seem small in the moment. Like deciding to be consistent in prayer. A tiny decision that has a world of impact.
Yahweh I pray that whatever choices are placed before me today that I would make God decisions and not just good decisions and to have that spirit of discernment to know the best choice. I know that not all decisions are life and death. But I do know that everything I say has the power of life and death tied up on it. Help me to also speak the right words and to think the right thoughts. Help me to honour you in all that I do. Thank you Yahweh for your love.
Thank you for holding me.
Thank you for restoration in my life.
Thank you for using us, for using the young adults for your will.
Thank you for never leaving us or forsaking us.
Thank you for your grace and your promises.
Thank you for holding me.
Thank you for holding me when no one else could.
Help me to hold on to you.
There are moments when being physically alone seems unbearable and other days where I’m like, I can do this no problem. I pray, Yahweh that in whatever state I’m in that I will lean into you. That I will trust you. Thank you for always being here. Thank you for being my friend. Keep me in your will. Grant me your wisdom and understanding so that I will know where to turn whenever a choice is brought before me. Thank you Yahweh for who you are. I love you.
Choice
Huh. So scripture about choice. Is it my choice or yours? Granted it’s posed as mine, but in so many ways it is your choice.
Romans 9:11-12 – Before the children had been born or had done anything good or bad, Rebekah was told that the older child would serve the younger one. This was said to Rebekah so that God’s plan would remain a matter of his choice,  a choice based on God’s call and not on anything people do
Divine Selection, chosen, the act of picking out: ekloge
Prothesis: setting forth, predetermination, purpose, (setting forth in advance for a specific purpose).
Life is truly just about choices. Yahweh gives us a choice:
Life or death
We choose death, we choose to keep making all our choices for ourselves.
We choose life, we choose to let Yahweh make our choices for us. And then he gives us more choices because he always considers us.
Yahweh I need help. I need your Spirit right now to remove this jealousy. I thought it was something that I was over, but it seems to still be lurking waiting for a reason to jump out and it did. The truth is, it always bothers me when I heard stories of men or women who got saved and then for minutes after, meet and marry their kingdom spouse. And I would always ask, “Well, what about me? I’ve been here faithfully serving you and what?” And I thought I had surrendered those thoughts and feelings and wasn’t held any more. Until this morning. I started listening to a testimony: atheist divorcing a year ago, because a Christian and is now married and the whole shebang. And I realised that what I thought I had surrendered was only buried.
I need you. I know what you have said for my life. I know that her testimony is not my testimony, I know that, but it doesn’t feel like my heart does. I know this year and time thereafter is for you, because I don’t want to lose what we already have, my desire for it to grow. Yahweh, heal my heart from this spirit of jealousy. Of this situation. Cleanse me and restore me to you. Forgive me of the thoughts that are not of you. Forgive me and thank you for loving me and not forsaking me.
I will trust you. To deliver. To heal. To restore. In your appointed time. Btw, it’s not even funny to myself because I also know our marriage is not even gonna happen this year, but I pray to remove marriage from the pedestal I’ve been slowly putting it up on. Not above you. Not above what you have called me to do. Help me to stay in your will. To choose you everyday. Thank you for choosing me and for choosing her to share her testimony. Thank you and I love you to you and back. Hugggggggsssss.
