We are still at the hospital. I haven’t been home since I left four something yesterday. Thankful for my parents being there. I’m tired. I want to curl up in my bed and just be held, but I know that’s not possible. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Strength for …
Today so many thoughts went through my mind. Yahweh, I believe in what you said. There are days and times I doubt and I probably will again, but this is the truth. I prefer to be single for the rest of my life rather than being married and treated like crap. I am not …
This morning, in my prayers I indicated that I’m not the best at teaching crowds, but would be better at working with/mentoring one (or two) youths at a time. Asked for guidance as to whom. Later on I met with the sponsor and we paired off secretaries with leaders. She suggested that I be paired …
There’s so many things I dreamed of doing with a life partner. There are so many dreams that will never happen. I realised this morning that one of the reasons I never pushed to build the Moriah house was because I never pictured building it and living in it by myself. I didn’t realise how …
I need to release my heart every day to Yahweh. Every day, every moment choosing to give it to him. One year began yesterday. SOLITUDE A state or situation in which you are alone because you want to be. While it’s not possible to be physically alone all the time, I am choosing (probably for …
Yahweh, I am thankful for the time, it gives me hope. Though there’s also slight anxious anticipation, I will not focus on that. Instead I will focus on what I need to do and grow. Thank you for your guidance. Thank you for your promises. Sigh. It really hits me at times how much I …
This is not going to be easy. But it will be worth it. Change, growth, progress does not come without sacrifice or without work. I need to remember: one day at a time. It will be alright in the end. Embrace Solitude
Yahweh, I’ve decided to be intentional. In worship. And learning. I know I may not always feel like it but it’s not just about my feelings. You still fight for us but you don’t force us. We have to choose to spend time with you. We have to choose.
