There is another door. God is a God of resurrection. As with Lazarus, when he allowed him to die it wasn’t about healing him but about Resurrection. Changing me, so that when the situation is changed I can deal with it. I am thankful this evening. There is progress. Today I didn’t have as many …
Woke up at 4:00 this morning. Brandon (my dog) did not eat yesterday, even with warm chicken and rice. This morning he’d barely moved from his spot. Sigh. I got up and started writing because I was catastrophizing. It still hurts at times, but I’m choosing to believe in Yahweh and his promises for me …
I don’t think Brandon will pull past today. I kind of expected him to go last night. Mom keeps trying to get me to put him to sleep and I usually have no problems doing that. But he’s old, not sick and I prefer that he died at home with folks that he loves and …
Today for the first time, I did not feel the urgent desire to corral my thoughts as they were not raging in me. I was still dreaming about some of my hopes but it was not catastrophic thoughts: which was an amazing feeling, that sense of hope and calm. Thank you Yahweh for working on …
We are still at the hospital. I haven’t been home since I left four something yesterday. Thankful for my parents being there. I’m tired. I want to curl up in my bed and just be held, but I know that’s not possible. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Strength for …
Today so many thoughts went through my mind. Yahweh, I believe in what you said. There are days and times I doubt and I probably will again, but this is the truth. I prefer to be single for the rest of my life rather than being married and treated like crap. I am not …
This morning, in my prayers I indicated that I’m not the best at teaching crowds, but would be better at working with/mentoring one (or two) youths at a time. Asked for guidance as to whom. Later on I met with the sponsor and we paired off secretaries with leaders. She suggested that I be paired …
There’s so many things I dreamed of doing with a life partner. There are so many dreams that will never happen. I realised this morning that one of the reasons I never pushed to build the Moriah house was because I never pictured building it and living in it by myself. I didn’t realise how …
I need to release my heart every day to Yahweh. Every day, every moment choosing to give it to him. One year began yesterday. SOLITUDE A state or situation in which you are alone because you want to be. While it’s not possible to be physically alone all the time, I am choosing (probably for …
