January 9, 2022
I guess I really have changed!! Yayyy!! So I didn’t do any bible study at midday time. I was reading. Did a couple things around the house. Jumped around (i.e. exercise). Started listening to some gospel music, but still felt unsettled. So here I am. I’m going to listen to a sermon and sketch.
I just want to say thank you for working in me. For healing. My mind is no longer a constant battle ground and that’s’ the biggest change of all. Thank you for your love for me. For the strength to go about each day. For showing me how to live intentionally and with purpose. But mostly for showing me how to trust you. You may probably laugh at this, but so many “boring” words are truly what is needed in any relationship. Me and you. Me and ?. Words like consistency. Intentionality. Dependability. You know, “boring” words. But things that truly deepen a relationship so that we can have the laughter and the fun and the inside jokes. I pray Yahweh that each day I would choose to connect with you. Because you are Jehovah and I need you everyday of my life.
Now you’re just teasing me right? So just started listening to a sermon and the first thing they mention is your consistency. Made me smile. Thank you for always being consistent in my life. I love you.
Sigh. I’m not complaining per se. But I kinda sorta am. Why are the leaders of the church so often inconsiderate of the members themselves? You plan a meeting, (almost) everybody finds out late. You cancelled the meeting and didn’t even have the courtesy to tell anyone. Why we stop so? I really not praying for patience ehh, but Yahweh, I need strength not to drop kick folks. That’s what I need.
