When Things Go Wrong (as they sometimes do)

March 21, 2022

It’s things like this that makes a person walk away. Give up. Honestly right now I am angry and disappointed and if I try to talk to anyone now, my words may not be controlled and I don’t want that. This evening the person responsible for the programme showed up late. Not only that, the person to read, read one paragraph instead of the three pages and then turned off their mic and camera. The person responsible for the evening did/said nothing. I ended up reading. They did not end the programme nothing, just sat there quiet. What upset me even more was that I spoke to them several times before. Spoke to them earlier in the day, they said everything was organised. Calling them and the reader fifteen minutes before the programme. No answer. Message. No response. And then when they come on this is a nonsense they do. I am not okay and I definitely don’t want to have a conversation while I’m angry, so I’m writing instead. 

Deep breaths. In and Out (lol). Yes, actually doing it as I write. Sigh. It will be okay. Tomorrow is another day. 

Gym Chronicles

On another note: chest days at the gym. Flys for the chest are never fun for me. And often it seems to hurt. Usually it’s done on an incline and every time I try to increase the weight I can’t make it. Today I really could not make it and actually told the trainer, only to discover that I could do the flys standing up with the machine. That one did not hurt my arm at all and now I’m like, why I never used the machine before? If only I had known. But I know now. And I can’t go back to the way things used to be. This is so true in so many ways, I can’t go back. Yahweh is not found in yesterday. He’s in today and the hope for tomorrow. It’s easy (why is it so easy?), to slip back into what used to happen, but each day I have to make a choice: am I going to keep on doing the same thing that caused me pain yesterday, today? Or am I going to do a new thing? 

Yahweh’s faithfulness is new every morning, so guess what? So will my faith. So will my actions. 

TODAY’S THANKFUL TALLY

1. Fifteen pound increase on the weights and lunges!!
2. Yahweh being all things to all men.
3. A (sorta) disaster of a programme.

Thank you for your spirit to calm and strengthen. To fill in the gap when we are about to fall. Thank you for your grace and for your love. I love you.