What Went Wrong?

August 22, 2022

Today, I’m writing on paper bound together by treasury tags (don’t know why they are called treasury tags). Huh. Learned something new today. I am thankful that I am still able to write though it looks nothing like what I would have expected to be writing on. Funny thing, actually had an extra sketchbook, but gave that away to someone so that they can start journaling. And truthfully at moment like this I wonder – why was I stripped so low? But then I remember Job, who was stripped of everything and I’m grateful. It may feel awkward and humbling and straight up embarrassing – a grown woman who can’t afford to put gasoline in the car. Who can’t afford to buy a sketchbook. A grown woman who has a good job. What went wrong? But maybe it’s actually what went right. Because despite the uncertainty of tomorrow, today I know who is in control. Today I know that he is Lord and Saviour and that he loves me.

Isaiah 54:10 – The mountains may move, and the hills may shake, but my kindness will never depart from you. My promise  of peace will never change,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.

He said. You said. And I am grateful for that. There is so much that you have said to me that at times (most times, if I’m being honest), I am still in awe that you spoke to me. That you took the time to speak into my life. That you have compassion for me. Or as the scripture says, “on me.” You’re just like, “here” and smother me with your compassion. Thank you Yahweh for changing my trajectory. For your rod and staff that guides and corrects. This life is yours. Today.

Provision

Yahweh, I am so grateful for your provision. I didn’t even consider this as a possibility. The bank did not return the funds they took out in error, but this period, they took out the balance, leaving back the funds from before. Thank you! Thank you! I wasn’t even expecting that. I honestly thought about getting a journal but decided not to. I will continue to use the paper held together with the treasury tags until it is finished.

A friend came by the office today and she indicated that she was called to collect her gratuity cheque. And honestly for a moment I was like maybe that’s how you will work cause you know gratuity is outstanding too, but I honestly said I don’t want to know. I want to be surprised by what you do, the same way I was surprised that they only took out the balance. I was truly expecting to see ten dollars and some cents in my account. Thank you!

Ain’t no one can tell me this wasn’t you. Happy dancing right now!