September 1, 2022
Yahweh, I bring before you the case that is laid against me. It’s not small to me, but it’s easy for you. You are the everlasting God and you deserve all the honour and glory. Please accept my sacrifice and I will find my peace in you. You said not to speak of what you asked me of what you asked me to do. As much as possible within me, I have done what you have asked. Yahweh, I have done what you have asked. Yahweh, I come before you asking for your deliverance. Your covering. I pray for your angel/my angel to make clear the path for provision to be made. Not just for today, but for all that you have called me to do.
Today is the day. I have nothing of my own after today, but I have you and I’m holding on to you. I am seeking your forgiveness. Your covering. Your love. Sigh. I know that you love me, I don’t even know why I said it that way. But I need your deliverance. To do what you’ve asked me to do. To support the family that you have placed me in. I don’t know how or where to turn other than you. But you are my everything. Deliver me Yahweh, save me for your purpose. Please don’t let me fall.
It’s an extensive list and I bring it to you:
My/Your debts (I know I incurred them, but I am handing them over to you)
36,000 Credit Card (1)
33, 000 Credit Card (2)
2,000 Credit Card (3)
150,000 Loan at Credit Union
30,000 Loan at Bank
Total: 251,000
This month’s obligations:
Retreat: 1,000
Bills: 9,000
Restitution: 3,000
Future Obligations:
Finish (the not mine) house: 150,000
Build my house (really your house): 500,000
Yahweh, it is yours. Show me the next step. Please restore and heal. Please provide. I cannot claim victory. Only in you. Horses and chariots cannot win. You are the one who wins. You sent your angel before for others, please don’t forget me.
Your words. You have said that you will never leave me nor forsake me. You have said that your word will not return to you void. It will not go back to you without coming to pass. It is your name. Your name is above all other names, especially mine. I am nothing without you. Yahweh, your story of redemption and restoration will not be complete until you actually restore and redeem.
I will boast of your splendour.
I will sing about your wealth instead of being disgraced.
I will have a double measure of wealth in your land.
I will have everlasting joy.
Yahweh, I am yours. Please don’t suffer my foot to be moved, because you are my help. My help only comes from the Lord. Only for you. Help me. Help me.
Isaiah 43:1-4 –
Do not be afraid, because I have reclaimed you.
I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you go through the sea, I am with you.
When you go through rivers, they will not sweep you away.
When you walk through fire, you will not be burned,
and the flames will not harm you.
I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
Egypt is the ransom I exchanged for you.
Sudan and Seba are the price I paid for you.
Since you are precious to me, you are honored and I love you.
I will exchange others for you.
Nations will be the price I pay for your life.
Yahweh, thank you for creating me. Thank you for reclaiming me as yours. Thank you for calling me by name. You are Holy and mighty. Heroic and good. You are the most high God and you alone are worthy to be praised. Thank you for putting me through the fire, but most of all thank you for not leaving me there alone. Thank you for being with me and for your love towards me.
Yahweh, I pray for Ayanna. She is also going through her own crucible. She is also yours. Yahweh, I pray that she finds strength in you. That she will trust you beyond what she can see and that she will also be saved as a testimony of your grace and goodness. Yahweh, the earth is yours and so is everything on it and in it. We can do nothing without you. I give you all the honour and glory that is due to you.
Psalm 121 –
I look up toward the mountains.
Where can I find help?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let you fall.
Your guardian will not fall asleep.
Indeed, the Guardian of Israel never rests or sleeps.
The Lord is your guardian.
The Lord is the shade over your right hand.
The sun will not beat down on you during the day,
nor will the moon at night.
The Lord guards you from every evil.
He guards your life.
The Lord guards you as you come and go,
now and forever.
Yahweh. The gas light is taunting me. But I am trusting you. I honestly keep checking the bank account hoping for a miracle. Nothing. Waiting for a phone call. Nothing. I don’t know how you desire to move, but you’ve promised I won’t fall. I am holding onto you. You said, don’t be afraid — and I’m trying not to be.
Yahweh, I will trust you. You will not let me fall. And all these prayers feel like me convincing myself. I pray for Lyndon and family. Strengthen them in you. Keep them under your wings. Thank you for your grace over them even with a death in the family. Thank you for your grace in my life even with debt. Let your Holy Spirit flow over us. Fill us to overflow so that our lives will be living testimonies of your goodness and grace.
Psalm 27:13-14 –
I believe that I will see the goodness of the Lord
in this world of the living.Wait with hope for the Lord.
Be strong, and let your heart be courageous.
Yes, wait with hope for the Lord.
Galatians 3:5 – Does God supply you with the Spirit and work miracles among you through your own efforts or through believing what you heard?
