February 16, 2023
4:35 am
Good Morning Yahweh. Imma smile today. But right now I’m wondering if I will ever be able to do better or be better? I’m trying to learn but if I’m not handling a simple budget what am I to do. This month just hard. Next month is looking harder and the one thing I wanted to do doesn’t seem financially possible. I really wanted to do a photoshoot. Never had one. Figured for my 44th birthday which fell on the 4th day of the 4th month that I would try. The cost so far are so high. I’m honestly afraid to ask you right now because all I’ve received in response for the past three months are no’s.
Sigh. Yahweh. It is my humble request to be able to have a photoshoot for my birthday and have the pictures in time for my actual birthday. I do not know how to accomplish it on my own. I pray for guidance, help, provision, in short – a miracle. It’s okay if you say no again. I’ll cry but it’s okay. I’ll call only one more photographer to get prices and then I’m out. Because it makes me sadder each one that I talk to. And I’m sorry this prayer is depressing. I didn’t mean it to be, please forgive me. I promise to smile today. I know that things will get better. I know that you are good. I know that I am loved. I know that if it doesn’t happen it is for my good. Thank you for always doing things for my good. Thank you for being God. For being a good father.
Verse of the Day
Jeremiah 31:25 – I will give those who are weary all they need. I will refresh everyone who is filled with sorrow.”
Yahweh, I pray for your strength, your wisdom. Your refreshing. Help me to keep my eyes fixed on you. Yahweh, I hate the creatures that are in the roof. I don’t know what else to do to get rid of them. Yahweh, please help.
“God, when I am weak, you are strong. When I am lonely, you are my comforter. When I feel unable to keep moving forward, you give me the strength to persevere. Please remind me when I feel overwhelmed that you are with me. Refresh my soul, and give me rest. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
Galatians 6:9 (KJV) – And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
Yahweh, I pray for Lon. Heal and restore.
Galatians 6:9 (GW) – We can’t allow ourselves to get tired of living the right way. Certainly, each of us will receive everlasting life at the proper time, if we don’t give up.
Okay, I will take heart. I will keep my faith in you, but I can’t promise that I won’t cry. I will keep holding on.
- The Verse of the Day
- The devotion that I thought I had read yesterday, but realising that I didn’t so I read it this morning, that ended with Galatians 6:9.
- Deciding to look for “Joy in the Morning” by Tauren Wells on YouTube to listen to for encouragement and opening up to see two things:
- Last night I was listening to a podcast but dozed off while listening. When I woke up, it had moved to another video, a sermon, but I just closed off YouTube. As I opened it this morning, the sermon that was playing is shown at the bottom entitled, “Never Give up.”
- There was a new song posted 17 hours ago by a singer I’ve never seen or heard of. “Hard Season” by Matthew West. And all together it made me pause because of what I’m feeling and what I wrote before.
I will take heart. I will not be weary because in due season, I will receive everlasting life if I don’t give up.
Singing
“Been a hard season. Been a broken road. All the dreams I was dreaming, they went up in smoke. But I keep on believing. There is a reason for this hard season.”
Thank you for being my help. My Hope. I am looking to you where my help comes from.
Another “interesting fact.” The title of the sermon isn’t “Never Give Up,” but it is in the thumbnail of the image. The sermon is entitled, “The Miracle You Need the Most.”
