April 29, 2022
This morning I made a very conscious decision to limit how much time I spend on this project. It’s too easy to get caught up. Life truly is about finding balance and ensuring that all the factions being balanced is done on Yahweh. Seems weird to use an image of Yahweh at the bottom but here’s the truth, he is the one holding me and everything that he wants me to do up. He’s at the top of every aspect, but also the base that holds everything together.
I know we often see the “Old Testament God” has strict and stern, but:
Jeremiah 3:12-14- Go and proclaim these things to the north: “ ‘Come back, unfaithful Israel. It is the Lord speaking. I will no longer frown on you because I’m merciful,’ declares the Lord. ‘I will no longer be angry with you.
Admit that you’ve done wrong! You have rebelled against the Lord your God. You have given yourself to strangers under every large tree. You have not obeyed me,’ declares the Lord.
“Come back, you rebellious people,” declares the Lord. “I’m your husband. I will take you, one from every city and two from every family, and bring you to Zion.
When a man getting horn and people know, unfortunately people just make it into a joke and laugh at him. Make it worse, if the man goes to the woman and says that he still wants her back. That’s what Yahweh did. Literally stood the shame and asked for us to come home: come back to him. He didn’t mind that he would be laughed at by those who were around, he still did it. Because he loved us that much.
Honestly, I’m still in awe of that because I’m not sure what I would do if someone cheated on me. Who am I kidding? I would walk away. Not likely to look back. If we were already married (Father, me cyar mek if dat happen), but it would fall under the worst category and I would do my best to forgive (please, please, pretty please don’t test me this way, ah goh dead). But if he repeatedly cheats, I will walk away. Even Yahweh says that unfaithfulness is cause for divorce.
And yet…
He chooses not to.
He chooses to still come after us time and time again. Time and time again.
I don’t understand that type of love, but I’m thankful for it. I’m thankful that he still loves me and is still trying to save me from myself.
Yahweh, you don’t deserve the way that we treat you and I’m sorry. Sorry seems as insignificant as thank you is in comparison to what we have done and what you have done for us. But I’m sorry. And thank you. Thank you for loving us still. Thank you for holding us still. Thank you for still providing for us. Thank you. I love you.
Your Promises
I don’t need to keep holding on to that part of the promise. And I’m sorry, even as I was writing this I have to immediately stop myself. Is it either that I believe in your promise or I don’t. But honestly some things when I see them cause me to doubt and others cause me to hold on. I don’t want to be like a wave Yahweh. Help me to be steadfast in you, to fix my focus on you. I mean you did so much for me, to save me, why would you if you don’t desire the best for me? Thank you for what you have done for me. Keep me in your world. Help me to discern what I see.
Yahweh, I bring JoeJoe before you. It’s not easy. Hold him please. He is yours. Thank you for saving him. Restore him Yahweh. Heal his marriage. Help them to trust you in all things. Even in times of doubt. Keep them until you return, in your name. Amen.
