February 7, 2023
8:52 pm : just sitting
Why am I not in bed? I do not know. But I had a thought this evening. I want to make me a special journal. All pretty and stuff. I’m calling it, “Promises and Prayers.” I usually write down answered prayers and promises that I believe Yahweh gave me personally. But they are scattered across sixteen (omg!!) journals. They’re at the back, so easy to find, but I want this journal to be with me. Scriptures, prayers, promises, daily reminders. What do you think?
What am I thankful for today?
- Yahweh’s promises. I will keep your word ever before me.
- Answered prayers. Even when the answer is a heartbreaking no.
- I’m gonna stop asking, “How.” It will be a bit difficult because it feels like I have no clue what I am supposed to do. But I am standing still. Why? Because “God will work it out.”
I am trying to ignore Valentine’s Day. Sigh. It’s a day that makes me feel most inadequate and unlovable. I’m curious how I’ve made it to 43 and have never celebrated Valentine’s Day with someone. Imma smile though. Though the Christmas Nos hit me for a six, it made me question if I ever heard your promises right. But I’m going to bed. Hold my pillow and say good night. Thank you for today. I love you.
*What to do with unanswered prayers?
*You fight anyway.
Two sermon titles – One below the other.
After the situation, things may look dead. Turns out the first title is a sermon that I have listened to. Yahweh, help me to hold on even when I don’t see.
