Relationship

February 19, 2022

Wow. I feel so good right now. Had gotten up and made breakfast. Not gonna lie (rofl), these pancakes were extra fluffy and flavourful. Exercised and then went back to sleep. I slept for about 3 hours. Mom asked me when I got up if I was sick. I’m like, nope. Rest does the body good! 

I usually weigh myself ever so often, but I also measure my waist because there are times when the scale is not moving, but the measuring tape is. And I was like it would be awesome if the first number drops. And it has!! Whooohooo! That’s so awesome. I have final goals that I’m aiming for, but I have to recognise that it may not move according to my plan. 2023 is a technical golden birthday. Lol. I say technical  because technically it passed when I was 4. But!! My birthday is on 04/04, so figured 44 would also count. So I have a year and some months to get to that weight. Will see how it goes. Either way, I won’t stop what I’m doing even if I don’t meet the goal by that time. 

SIDEBAR: I was just reading the review for a book and the writer of the review said, “We are not supposed to read the Bible and insert ourselves in it; instead, we must see how it points to Jesus Christ. The Bible is about him.” 

The thing is: I understand where the reviewer is coming from. But I think that they are missing a major factor. You cannot have a book (any book, fiction or otherwise) without some level of interaction. If the book is about one person who never even speaks to their own selves, why would I read that book? Why would such a book with its one word (the name of the character) even get published?!

I think the reviewer missed that the Bible is ultimately about relationships: God’s relationship with himself and his relationship with those he created. How can we not read the Bible and see how we are as hot headed as Peter but by Yahweh’s grace we can be sturdy as a rock? How can we read the Bible and not see how we are blinded and how much Jesus wants to open our eyes? The Bible is literally a love letter to us. It shows Yahweh’s love for us, through his son. Through his grace. Through a million and one ways. To read the Bible and not put ourselves into each character (except Jesus, let’s not do that) is to not see the love that he has for us. Is to not see how personalised his love is for us. Is to actually not truly see Christ. Sigh. It broke my heart to see that. And while I’m not going to debate whether the author of the book was genuine while writing it,  I do believe that if you can’t see ourselves as a character in the Bible: sharing the same qualities as Sarah (when she laughed and when she believed), then it’s best to walk away, because we would be living this life in vain and might as well do whatever we want. 

You, above all, desire a relationship with us. With me.  On a personal level. I pray that those who don’t see that would have their eyes opened. May they be drawn so close to you that they can truly see you and see the way that you love them. Everything you do is for us, to save us. So that we can be with you. Thank you for choosing us, thank you for your love. I love you. 

This is why I take deep breaths and why I started journaling. Because I don’t want to let things pile up. Tell me why I’m getting the message at 2 minutes to programme start that we need to do welcome? It’s not a doing the welcome is a problem, but several times I asked what was required and repeated them for confirmation of what they said. At no point was welcome included, even though I asked. Sigh. Not a huge fan of things like that.