I pray that when the time is right, I will remember what was revealed this morning (and I truly pray that it wasn’t wishful thinking). Yahweh, prepare me to be your sanctuary Funny story, which makes me wonder if I heard right. But I got to let go and trust God anyhow. The date …
November 15, 2021
Had a dizzy spell with nausea. Never had that before. I am sad. And I know that I have to really heal. Yahweh at times I do feel like I’m always rejected or not chosen. But I know that, that’s not the truth. I may not be for everyone, but I am hopefully for someone. …
November 14, 2021
The message has been sent. Sometimes I wonder if I should have said anything. He said we crashed and burned. But I said we didn’t. But if we had continued the way we were, we would have. Things were not okay. We ended, but we didn’t crash and burn. What am I thankful for today? …
November 13, 2021
Today and probably tomorrow, I will take the time. To mourn what we had because it was great while it lasted. He was caring, funny, supportive and in many ways he still is. He just does not make the time. I miss exploring, I miss the moments we shared. I miss us and I know …
November 12, 2021
For the first time last night, since we started talking I did not wish him good night. As weird as it sounds, I have to accept the reality that I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t know what will happen. Time will reveal. God will reveal when he is ready. In the meantime …
November 11, 2021
Today I noticed that I’m feeling sad and unmotivated. I just want to stay in bed and interact with only a few people, if any at all. I have decided to use this as my journal everything. I’m not sure why I’m feeling this way, but I have been doing my best, well trying, not …