So I have committed to this journey. Self-care, mental health and growth. This morning after devotion, I moved to music for 8 minutes. It felt good. So even though I’ll be hella lonely and isolated, I think I do need to live on my own for a while. I had baked brownies, they were for …
November 26, 2021
You know what I am still amazed at? What we have been taught as Christians. We have been taught that we have to always be “happy.” We must not complain. Never show a face that things are not okay. BUT!! When we read the scriptures we see people sharing their emotions. You see people of …
November 25, 2021
As part of this journey, in addition to journalling, exercising, mindfulness, I will also take at least 30 minutes and sit in a public space. Can’t promise that it would be somewhere like the mall, but would start by the esplanade, instead of just sitting in my car with the windows up. This morning I …
November 24, 2021
Today I finished shredding all the old paper journals. I cry a lot about loneliness in all of them. I’ve even asked Yahweh to take away the desire for a partner from me. Also the desire for a child. I’ve definitely mourned not having a child and I truly don’t want one at this age. …
November 23, 2021
While there have been times I’ve said this grudgingly, in this moment it is truly my heart’s desire. I pray that I will always choose to let your will be done. I will remain in this place. I will grow in this place until you call me into something else. I will learn to love …
November 22, 2021
Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for constantly reminding me whenever the doubt overwhelms me. I cannot look so far forward. I don’t want to laugh at your promises. I want to trust you in everything. Not gonna lie, it’s hard right now to believe in the future. But I also …
November 21, 2021
Relief is not freedom. Trust in God is freedom. Learn to get from God what you get from Pharaoh. Thank you for your message: I won’t quit on you. Embrace the solitude. I am enough. I am not entertaining anything serious with anyone. I just want to have fun. Casual dating, casual conversation. Not getting …
November 20, 2021
Writing helps. Yahweh, I really need your strength today. Sigh. I’m gonna be okay. I’m not going up there and cry. Thank you for your love. It’s not a one day thing. I will let you lead. You are in control and if I attempt to take back control, please tap me. Please don’t let …
November 19, 2021
Acknowledge and process my emotions. Acknowledge the mistake out loud. Think of it as a learning experience. Put the process on hold if needed. Have a conversation with my inner critic. Notice when I’m being self-critical. Quiet the negative thoughts of the critic (write it down then write a compassionate response). Be clear about what …
November 18, 2021
God would rather have me go through a period of frustration, than have me build on the wrong foundation. 2 Corinthians 1: 3-5 – Praise the Lord and father of our Lord Jesus Christ! He is the father who is compassionate and the God who gives comfort. He comforts us when we suffer. Thank you …