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January 20, 2023

 

1:08 pm Sitting at my desk at work.

I’m starting everyone off with a clean slate. I had to take a deep breath. An email that was sent almost six weeks ago was not acknowledged or forwarded to the required person. We need to do better.

 

3:48 pm : Sitting in my room, feeling depressed

I know it’s a small thing but I am honestly just tired. My slippers burst. I’m going to try and fix it because I have no other footwear. But Yahweh seriously? Am I so horrible that this is going to be my life? I can’t seem to get anything done. I can’t even afford a slipper and honestly I’m tired. I’m so tired. I’m tired. I’m going to bed. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I hope cause nothing is working out and I’m tired.

Sigh. I’m trying to pretend that I’m not sad, but I still am. I’m well, I was reading. I’m going to feed the dogs.

 

8:05 pm 

I’m choosing to keep hope alive. Yahweh I truly pray that the rest of my life isn’t going to be just struggle because I’ll probably be depressed for the rest of my life if that’s the case. I know that life is not always easy, but I pray that life is not always hard either. Yahweh. Help me please.

 

What am I thankful for today? 

  1. An app that one of my officers have been working on is almost ready to launch.
  2. Hey!! Tomorrow is the AY. Launch!!
  3. My slipper burst. Again. Trying to be thankful in everything.
  4. I am alive. My family is alive.
  5. I have a place to sleep.
  6. My animals are fed and have a place to sleep.
  7. The vehicle is still moving and gas did not finish.
  8. I will not be going anywhere in the morning so I will make breakfast. Thinking fry bake. Not float for a change. Fry bake.
  9. That I can still give thanks.
  10. Yahweh still loves me. It’s hard right now, but he loves me.
  11. I love you.

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