March 16, 2023
3:15 pm : at work in the office
Sometimes I’m working in the field. Thank you for today. Thank you for the extra hot, hot sun. Thank you for your messages. See I know that you use YouTube. A video had me smiling, entitled, “I thought God Told me who my Husband was and I was Wrong.” I had to laugh and did watch it. Some times (most times), the experiences we go through can draw us closer to God, if we let it. And that’s what she did. What I am going to say though – I won’t hide my desire to be married. So often we’re made to feel ashamed for wanting marriage especially if the “traditional” age for marriage has passed, that we don’t verbalise the desire anymore. But it’s not evil or a sin, it’s a desire. By the grace of Yahweh, I will not idolise marriage though. But I will say that yes, I do desire to get married and stay married. Happily. Through the ups and downs.
6:46 pm : watching a podcast
So. The guest on the podcast said that she didn’t know that the woman’s sex drive increases in her 40’s which is when the man’s sex drive is decreasing. Because they peaked in their 20’s. So, women in their 40’s really should be with men in their 30’s.
7:30pm : still listening
So a statement I’ve heard a lot. The statement, “this is how you keep a man/woman.” But you could be laying down a red carpet or some other something, if a man or woman don’t want to be kept, they will not stay. I was groaning a bit because speaking and manifesting or rather having whatever it just happening has not happened yet for me. So what makes the difference? Why do some people seem to be able to speak and it happened and others are still struggling? Sometimes I wonder. But I won’t keep wondering. I’ll keep believing on your word and trust that you will direct my path. Thank you for today. Believe, do what is needed for your spouse, but in the end, it’s the person’s choice to stay.
8:20 pm : Going to bed
What do I see in the natural? What do I see in the spiritual? They were talking about “speaking” and manifesting. And thank you for the amazing grace that you’ve covered me with.
I’m not gonna watch anymore DFW right now because it’s making me want to have sex. Not that the show is sexual, but conversations are stimulating and I ain’t married yet, so gonna keep myself quiet and go to bed.
What am I thankful for?
- Finally! Finally! Getting location for MET for the stations.
- That my husband will still be at his peak while I’m at my peak.
- Sharing a testimony of no’s. Yahweh uses the no’s just as much as the yeses.
Thank you for today. Love you to you and back.
