August 31, 2022
Yahweh, the truth is I feel forsaken. There is no miracle that I can see. I am in a bigger hole than I was before and there is no way out. I’m holding on to you, because you’ve said you will never leave me nor forsake me. So even though I feel this way, I’m still holding on to you. Imma cry, but I’ll hold on to you. I’ll probably lose my job but I’ll hold on to you. I’ll be letting down a whole bunch of people from my parents to Steph and Angie, but I’m holding on to you. Because even if you don’t help me in this situation, I will trust that it is for your glory. I’ll admit though that I am a bit scared. Are you sure I can’t talk about what you asked me to do? Cause I am definitely sure that you did ask me to do it. And I did want to do it. I just wasn’t expecting to fall flat on my face. Mom is asking questions cause the funds I usually give aren’t forthcoming and Yahweh, there isn’t anything that I can do. I will rest in you. My peace is in you. And at some point I do have to say something because there were so many obligations that I am going to have to say something eventually. I am still hoping in you Yahweh. Even if you don’t, my hope is in you. But I pray for deliverance. You surround me with songs of salvation: you are my hiding place, you protect me from trouble. You surround me with songs of salvation (Psalm 32:7).
Thank you for never leaving me or forsaking me. Thank you for your everlasting love. Thank you for you and the many ways that you have strengthened me and grown me. Thank you for being God above all. This whole world is yours. Thank you for caring for us.
Hebrews 13:5 – Don’t love money. Be happy with what you have because God has said, “I will never abandon you or leave you.”
Deuteronomy 31:8 – The Lord is the one who is going ahead of you. He will be with you. He won’t abandon you or leave you. So don’t be afraid or terrified.”
Genesis 28:15 – Remember, I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go. I will also bring you back to this land because I will not leave you until I do what I’ve promised you.”
It’s not about my feelings but about what you said. Your word will not return to you empty. Thank you for being the God of your word.
TODAY’S THANKFUL TALLY
- You are the God of your word.
- Independence Day Fireworks.
- Meeting up with folks even though I was not feeling like it at first.
- You will never leave me nor forsake me.
Thank you Yahweh, I love you.
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