January 3, 2022
So did you know that I could do this? It’s not affecting me as negatively as I thought. Unfortunately, the word easy was in my thoughts, but it’s more of it being unexpected that my body adapted. I am still definitely hungry, but it’s easier to ignore the hunger. That’s it!! It’s easier to ignore the hunger. No lie, for someone who likes words, sometimes words fail me.
Thank you for filling in the gap when words fail.
You are faithful. Test my anxious thoughts. Yahweh, I am truly thankful for the constant renewing of my mind. It has been a battleground for so long, but You are in control and the battle is Yours.
I know that I’m only seeing the word “Intentional” because it’s now my word for the year, but I am thankful for the careful reminders. You are intentional and are working things for my good. It is my aim to be intentional to you.
Proverbs 16:9 – A person may plan his own journey, but the Lord directs his step.
Change the way I think. Don’t think like the people of the world.
Yahweh I bring before you Lissa. She is your child. I pray that she chooses to honour you. You know the plans you have for her. Keep her in your will. Thank you for the fulfillment of your promises. Remember her family. may they come to know you and to love you.
Sidebar: You do know what is best. If I had been director previously, it would have been a disaster. I’m not sure I’m ready or that I even truly want the position (though the bump in salary would be nice), but given my mental state previously, I probably would have cracked. Thank you for not giving in to my presumptuousness. Help me to be a good Jonathan.
TODAY’S THANKFUL TALLY:
- A productive day: was able to get a good bit done today.
- Not exhausted from the gym. Thank you for working on me physically.
- Your direction in my life. Your promises.
For a long time, I truly did not believe that someone would love me and choose me. Actually choose me and want to be with me. Because no one has ever done that. I have realised that I am lovable. But not everyone will love me. I will wait for the one who will choose me AND want to be with me. But I am thankful for You. You who chose me. Who wants me and I am thankful for that. No lie…I know it’s not physical and I do long for the physical too. Yahweh I pray for your continued strength, not to lose my belief in You.
[I probably would have been more messed up too, because I would have been attached to persons I should not have been attached too, if they had chosen me]
