January 6, 2023
Hmmm. I was daydreaming. At 5:20 in the morning. Dreams are awesome. Necessary, needed. Daydreaming must be brought under control. Because you have not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and self-control.
This is still one of my favourite scriptures, especially how you highlighted it to me. Thank you for your promises. Help my mind to be in you. To learn more of you. To honour you. Thank you for being God in my life, of my life. Sometimes I truly don’t know what to say which is weird as I’m attracted to conversations. Yahweh. You are most beautiful. Amazing.
Sometime earlier I wondered how my love for all things land related and book related would come together. But I can’t remember if it was a sermon or podcast or something that I was listening to that the speaker said that many of the “greats” that we know did not limit themselves to one thing. They had many interests and were often involved in many fields. And it made me realise that my various interests/passions don’t have to intersect. They can be totally separate activities that all tie into the complexity that is me. I have to choose a lot of things. Yahweh for example. I have to intentionally choose him. But I don’t have to choose one or two from amongst the gifts that he gave me. When I saw the vision that Yahweh gave me about writing and the journals, the magnitude of it felt like I would have to give up Landscape Architecture and Urban Planning. And I honestly thought at the time: why would he show me this to later tell me to discard it? Why spend so many years studying and working in the field to then completely abandon it? But he’s not and I don’t have to.
And I need to learn new drafting skills. It’s been so long since I’ve done that.
