December 29, 2022
Good Morning Yahweh. How are you today? I am a bit weary. Eyes are tired but! I am alive. I am thankful for another day with you. Thank you for being a friend. Thank you for the wake up call in so many ways. Everything has its time and season and reason. And I am going to keep on trusting you in all of them. For all of them.
You are an amazing God. You understand me better than I even understand myself. Yahweh, help me continue to learn and grow. To know who I am in you and to trust you for guidance even if it makes no sense to me at the time. Even if it hurts at the time.
Yahweh, forgive me for my stubbornness. There is truly a time to leave the past behind. To look to the future and the goal set before us. Yahweh. I will trust you for this future. You know the plans you have for me that even though I go through captivity, you have plans to prosper. Even though I go through the wilderness, you have plans not to harm me and to give me an expected end. Thank you for the promise of a life lived in you.
Yahweh, remember the members of the council. It’s not an easy task, but you are there. Thank you for guiding the leader and for being the help that is needed. Thank you for your amazing love for her. Help her to always choose you. To see the path you have set before her and not the door that Satan may be opening. Teach her Yahweh to trust you no matter what happens. Calm her spirit in you. Hold her close, Yahweh. Thank you for your love and grace.
Philippians 3:13-14 – Brothers and sisters, I can’t consider myself a winner yet. This is what I do: I don’t look back, I lengthen my stride, and I run straight toward the goal to win the prize that God’s heavenly call offers in Christ Jesus.
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Jeremiah 29:11 – I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord. They are plans for peace and not disaster, plans to give you a future filled with hope.
Thank you Yahweh for your promise. Thank you for your love. I’m casting through my thoughts (and hopefully your thoughts) for the word(s) for 2023. But nothing seems right so far.
Promise
Deliverance
(Literal deep sigh). Yahweh be my peace. Guide me into your truth. Your word. Thank you for your plans for me. Teach me Yahweh. In the name of Jesus. Amen.
Sigh. For the past few weeks a guy has been asking me out. And I’ve been deflecting. I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, but this morning I realised that I had to be honest. I cannot date him. While not all dating leads to marriage, it should be intentional. He is not a Christian. He does believe in God, but God isn’t a major factor in his life. He is in mine. I told him so this morning.
The funny thing is, it prompted the most conversatiion ever. He accused me of brushing him off by saying that I can’t date until the middle of December. Which was actually the truth. I wasn’t brushing him off. I actually could not, would not date until December 14. There were actual attempts to physically meet, but they did not work out. And I’m not pushing it. The other concerns for me are:
- He has a sixteen year old son.
- He is divorced.
These were never really factors I considered as no’s before because I have dated divorced and fathers before. But while I know the past is the past, including mine, I also know that for me, those factors have turned out to be negatives. Would Yahweh lead me to a divorced, single, younger than me father? Possibly. I don’t know. But I know that he will not lead me to someone who doesn’t wholeheartedly follow him.
And even with Jeffers. Last night I decided to move on. Yes, we’re friends, but even though his access to me was significantly reduced after we broke up, I realised that I need to reduce access even more. This morning he asked how I’m doing. My response was simple, “Alive and well.” His response? “Annnnddd?” asking for more information. And I didn’t give anymore. I am alive and well in the name of Jesus.
Ohhh. the other guy said, he hopes I find a guy in the church. Told him it’s not about a building. But when he spoke before, he said he went to church when he found the time. We don’t find the time for Yahweh. We make the time, it’s not always easy and it may not always be long, but make the time.
I confess. Sometimes I doubt whether what I sense is Yahweh or me. And then a message or something happens that says yes, “I actually said that.” Repeated scripture is one way.
Yesterday: moving on.
This morning in devotion Philippians 3:13-14. And then received a message that was entitled, “Don’t Look Back” and also quoted the same scripture.
I am moving forward. Into the destiny that Yahweh has for me. Thank you for your amazing promises. Because no matter what season I’m in, you are working all things for my good. Thank you Yahweh, I love you.
