January 22, 2022
Well, I did ask you to keep me on track. On the right path. Thank you Yahweh. Honestly though, “small things” like things like this serve to encourage me and keep me confident that you won’t desert me and that I won’t “miss” your directions.
SIDEBAR: I was home, sleeping. The place was so quiet and peaceful that when I woke up I considered staying home in the quietness. Not even 5 minutes passed when one of the boys in the neighbourhood started playing loud music from his car. So loud that the house was shaking. Yeah. Got up. Told Mom I was heading to the river and got dressed. As soon as my clothes were on and the water bottle filled, guess what? Music car was gone, but I did not return to bed.
At this moment I am sitting at the side of a river that I think would also be perfect for my next camp. Bonus!! Thank you for the push.
Still waters run deep (er). Such a true statement. The noisiest part of the river was at the shallowest and stony spots, including the waterfall which was the loudest. But the water just flowed. Well actually over the stones it moved quicker and over the waterfall it moved even faster. But when it got to the pools, it slowed down: still moved, but slowed down. Our lives are like that. Stones, waterfalls, they are obstacles and they usually occur at transitions in levels. They occur at unpredictable intervals, they make noise and they are noticed. But they are part of the river’s journey and ours. But you know what? They are beautiful. A waterfall is a spectacular sight, especially the bigger they are. They also make the biggest impact and form the widest, deepest pools at the base. Usually too there’s only one, maybe two massive waterfalls in any one river. And people are drawn to them. I have never seen a waterfall that folks did not want to see. But I bet if rivers had feelings it’s probably thinking wth? What is happening to me? Why am I going over thisssss! What did I do to deserve this? Nothing. The river was just being a river and navigating everything that comes its way (A tiny hummingbird) but as it goes it’s way, we are drawn to it. That’s what our lives should be like. Even the unexpected and potentially dangerous (have you actually gone over a waterfall?!!) can be avenues that Yahweh would use to draw others closer to him. And after the death defying, you rest, take it easy. Be still in the pools created.
SIDEBAR: Just saw a line of black SUVs pass. Makes me wonder if the Prime Minister is on the island. And some folks just came to the same spot that I am at, but they aren’t loud. Though all of a sudden a lot of vehicles are passing by up in the road.
Sometimes it’s harder to do. Maintain the new boundaries that is. During the week I kept asking the leader for the programme for this evening if everything was in order. I got a couple of responses but basically yes. There were times I didn’t even get a response though. Tell me why two hours before the programme is supposed to start, when I’m nowhere near a computer, he is messaging asking me to host the zoom. He won’t have his computer and he wants me to share videos. Usually I would facilitate, but the realisation that I do need to maintain this boundary and not run to help every time came on strong. I indicated that there was a reason why I kept contacting him all week. He needs to figure out a solution. This time, I won’t be running to help. Offer guidance yes, but he has to figure it out.
