May 1, 2022
I did not sleep much last night. Honestly I was just enjoying the evening reading and decided to stay up later reading, but eventually went to sleep. So now I am feeling tired. Sometimes I feel guilty not being plugged into everything, the latest news in my country etc, and this morning I saw that there was a cyber attack on one of the biggest companies here and they had to close. They’re opening up back the stores but not all at once. And the guilt left, why? Because I literally could not have done anything about it. Now I do check in once a day for the news highlights and I guess I missed that one. But I am happy that I am not stressed about things I have no control over. I am thankful for progress and answer prayers. So I will focus on that.
I sometimes wonder though, how Yahweh puts up with us. 2,000 years and we still doing the same nonsense. And I guess it shows just how human we are and that there’s honestly nothing new under the sun.
Jeremiah 9:8 – Their tongues are like deadly arrows. They speak deceitfully. People speak politely to their neighbors, but they think of ways to set traps for them.
Why we stop so? How many years of Yahweh’s mercy and we still doing the same thing. We’re still lying and cheating and honestly it feels like it has gotten worse. Or maybe I’m just seeing clearer. But it’s heartbreaking and sometimes the situation seems hopeless, like why bother? Why bother to share about Yahweh when so many don’t seem to care? Because it’s good news. And especially in times like these, good news must be shared. And warnings. Yahweh does not want his people to perish – so he sends warnings after warnings. And he desires the heart, not the outward trappings or rituals etc but the heart. And for some reason we always want to hold on to our hearts tightly and our rituals. They can’t save us.
Jeremiah 9:26(b) – Even though these nations are circumcised, all Israel has uncircumcised hearts
Jeremiah 4:4 – Be circumcised by the Lord, and get rid of the foreskins of your hearts, people of Judah and inhabitants of Jerusalem. If you don’t, my fury will flare up like a fire. It will burn, and no one will be able to put it out,
because of the evil you do.Galatians 5:6 – As far as our relationship to Christ Jesus is concerned, it doesn’t matter whether we are circumcised or not. But what matters is a faith that expresses itself through love.
What does our heart look like? That’s a question we have to ask ourselves and also allow Yahweh to search us and to reveal the truth of our heart. Yahweh, I pray that my heart is right with you. That we’re not caught up with what things look like, but how things truly are. Help us to live a life of integrity so that when we speak you are able to come in agreement. Thank you for your grace, because oh how our hearts need it. We need you. Thank you for who you are. I love you. My heart does too.
Food Again
I am convinced. Beyond a doubt. I am being tested. Mom or Dad bought food today. I saw it while packing away the groceries and I groaned because it’s actually from one of the few places I buy food from when I do. Dad comes in, ” You had lunch already?” This is me, “I saw the food there that you bought.” Then mom came in and also asked the same question. I gave almost the same response. The thing is, so much “outside” food does not come into our home on a regular, but the time I’m fasting? It’s like everyday there’s extra food. We’ve given away most of the baked goods, thank goodness. But, I did put away the food for another time. Yahweh, it’s the third to last day. Keep me. I truly don’t want appetite to be controlling me for life. Thank you for the strength to remain focused and forget about food (even though I’m praying about it right now). Thank you for healing, your grace. Thank you for being the bread of life, my living water. Thank you.
