Conversations with Yahweh

January 30, 2022

The truth is, when your body is healing from any type of injury or illness, it takes a toll. I managed to complete the hike yesterday. Today? I feel like a bite up shilling. And I’m basically just packed away groceries and interlocked the back of my hair because it kept joining up too much. 

I am thankful though, that I am still definitely able to work better than Thursday and Friday so yayyyy! So it’s going to be a quiet day today. Not going anywhere and going to get as much rest as possible. 

Conversations (with God)(Sermon)

Modern definition: Oral exchange of sentiments, observations, opinions or ideas.

Obsolete definition: Conduct, behaviour (how did its definition change?)

Completely random SIDEBAR: I fell asleep and had the weirdest dream. That there were these  folks who lived in an area with some type of assigned quarters.  One woman for some reason put her groceries inside this old broken down structure. When she went back to get it she had to crawl over broken wooden floors. All she did was open the door and got her groceries, but somehow that let out two crazy people who started rampaging and other crazy weird stuff. Then there was a split screen and it showed someone taking the remote and saying “I don’t want to watch through all this crap.” It went back to the other scene where the crazy people were being sucked into an alien ship that they were originally from, but because they had started causing so much confusion, they took them back. The next scene was with some folks saying it had to be done and putting some weird stuff in their head. When one of them looked out the window, they saw a guy wielding fire going into a building and some of them went to stop him. But it turned out to be a show. 

Yes, I confess. This is supremely weird. I rarely have dreams that I remember and those usually have a prophetic inclination. I don’t know what this was and I wasn’t watching anything close to that when I fell asleep. Yeah super weird. 

Now back to the conversation: 

*My life is turning because of the conversations I am having. Your conversation is your life. 

* I should not live life as a monologue. We will create it for conversation. When God wants to create something he starts talking, but when he wants to do something he stops talking. However, if what he’s talking to does not respond then it cannot produce what God wants. 

*Our whole life is a dialogue with god.

[What would have happened if Sarah had said she would not go along with Abraham’s deception. BTW, how fine was this woman that every man wanted her?! Damn]

God speaks, teaches, and corrects through circumstances. 

Circumstance: 

1. A factor condition connected with or relevant to an event or action
2. One’s state of financial or material welfare.
3. (Archaic) ceremony and public display.

Sometimes God has to take you out of your norm in order to show you something. He is using every situation to speak to us.

• Discover truth, identity and destiny through conversations with God.
• Discover potential through conversations with God.
• Cross-pollinate through conversations with others.
• Trust in God is one of the drivers to deeper conversations with God. 

Seven questions to always be asking God in order to keep on growing in him: 

1. Who am I? He knows me. What does he call me? (Daughter). As I grow, I change, so who I am also changes. 
2. What am I here to do? Why am I in this situation?
3. What have you given me? What is in me that is unique for doing what I am here to do? 
4. Shall I go up? We need to inquire of the Lord what we ought to do. Oftentimes we think because we can do something that we should. David, as a mighty warrior, came back and saw his village destroyed. But even though he had the skills he asked God what he should do. This is something I am learning to do more and more, not every opportunity is placed there by God. He will pull you back.

CONFESSION: The speaker just said that when you are in conversation with God, you’re not jumpy. You don’t leap at everything and you’re not desperate. And it really hit me, I am not. Yes they are steps that I have to take (and I am), but there is truly that inner calm that lets you know that is going to be okay. That this offer is not for you, even though it looks enticing. Last week (things you remember-facepalm), a young man was extending an offer and in the most polite, non hurtful way I could think of, I said no. And I remember thinking, “You may be in Christ, but you’re not supposed to be part of this journey.”

Dating status: “I’m in a conversation…with God”

1. What do you want? (God that is)
2. Is this it? Or shall I look for another? Should I give up what I have now? (It could be what you’ve hoped and prayed for) is this what you desire for me? Be willing to surrender what you’ve dreamt about: this is amazing but I will suspend my allegiance to it, if you tell me I need to be looking for something else. 

SIDEBAR: It’s interesting the path you end up taking. The house plan. It was never my intent to get planning permission to build the house. But more and more, I realised that’s where God was leading. But here’s what. The approval has to go through three additional agencies: Health, Fire, Infrastructure. In two of the three, there is someone God has already put in place and I firmly believe that there’s someone there for the third. It wasn’t in my plan because it would cost money that I don’t have and still don’t have but it is clearly what is in God’s will. Discipline and Sacrifice. 

1. Give me this day my daily bread. This is what is needed everyday. Strength and wisdom for the day. Every day is loaded with something for me. I don’t want to surrender the day in a monologue. Ask God to help you to see him each day.

Yahweh, so many times I want to feel like I’m being repetitive in asking for provision, strength for today. But that is truly what you are asking us to do. And tell me why the preacher is using the analogy of us being a river? I truly love the way that you confirm, it is truly a blessing. Thank you for speaking with me, for sharing your wisdom. For drawing me nearer and nearer to you. Thank you for waking me up to truly be with you.

See now you’re just playing with me. Having some good (confirming) fun. The pastor just ended by saying “The advantage of being in an intentional conversation with you all my day.” Thank you for your Word. I did not think of it myself, it was a word that you kept impressing on me for this year, “Intentional” and from all corners it keeps coming. To be intentional in my relationship with you, with myself, with family. Not doing anything as a throwaway or just because, but recognizing why I would choose to do something. Thank you for being intentional with me, forgiving me your hope and your future. You are truly amazing. I love you and respect you.