January 10, 2022
I’m convinced!! Beyond a shadow of a doubt. P2 is here to teach me patience. Because he tries my last nerve. Just settled in after feeding the collective, packing away clothes etc and P2 starts barking. Sometimes I’m convinced that the neighbours does be cussing us for all the noise these dogs (but especially P2) make!!
CONFESSION: I get distracted with the noise they make, especially when I’m looking for quiet. But I’m gonna take some deep breaths and try to ignore the noise.
And yayyyyy!! I got back my favourite colour pen!! I got through so much work today that I was able to start on the ideas Yahweh gave me. And I realised that what I thought may be “easy” will actually be a lot of work. And it’s only day one. But I’m pressing forward.
Also made contact regarding the art proposal. Turns out the cylinders belong to the hotel and not the government. Gonna see if the hotel will give us permission to use them. If it happens, it would be awesome!! I’m excited. I’m going to try and dedicate at least one hour (minimum) to the blog project and start the proposal for the art project. We’ll see how it goes.
Today I made a card for the neighbour. Dropped it on a mailbox.
Proverbs 25: 21, 22If thine enemy be hungry, give him bread to eat; and if he be thirsty, give him water to drink: For thou shalt heap coals of fire upon his head, and the Lord shall reward thee.
CONFESSION: I did not know exactly what “coals of fire” meant. I’d first heard it in a story as a child and the text came to mind as I remembered the card for the neighbour.
SIDEBAR: Just had to run. Rain came down and had to run and bring in the mattress. Mind you, the sun went down a while ago and I had forgotten about it. (facepalm)
The God’s Word translation says “make him feel guilty and ashamed” which made me pause. I don’t want him feeling guilty and ashamed. The sad truth is, no one in the neighbourhood really talks to him. He has cursed out, threatened folks and so people for the most part avoid him. We used to give him fruits and veggies and Christmas packages and then he started attacking our family. Every time we went outside he cursed us. Much less when we said good morning or attempted to give anything. The thing is, one day it really hit me that it must really suck when no one, not even your siblings want anything to do with you. It’s a sad life. So I think I prefer the Message translation: generosity will surprise him with goodness. But I must admit, since actively praying for him, intentionally praying for him, I have not heard him quarrelling with anyone. He still watches us bad eye, but there is hope. Who says prayers don’t work?
Yahweh. He is yours. I will do what I can, but his heart is yours only. Harden not his heart.
My mother is upset that I want to go camping by myself again this weekend. But what they don’t understand is that in addition to my commitment to time with you, I don’t have anyone who would want to go camping with me. The one person who would have been willing is not in the picture at the moment. But I can’t let that stop me. Yes, you have promised but it doesn’t mean that I sit at home moping for however long. I like camping and having a (camper)van allows me to do that. So I’m gonna head out. Checking out spots this week because safety is still important to me.
TODAY’S THANKFUL TALLY
- Energy!! This morning, I was able to clear most of my work. Well until the next batch reaches me.
- Started typing up the blog entries.
- Mailed out the card for the neighbour.
- Increased stamina at the gym today.
- Got back my favourite colour pen!
Hmmm. The speaker says that so often we limit ourselves to what others think of us. So we hide part of ourselves. The truth is (as I see it), I am not really accepted as I am anyway and I have to accept that. I am not for everyone and I’m not going to hide who I am. But I’m not going to stay around people who don’t appreciate me or who constantly tear down. I have no problem with criticism, correction, or critique. I will learn and grow from it, but not at the expense of my general well-being.
