January 17, 2022 Yahweh, thank you for today. It went nothing according to plan, but! I do know that things happen or not happen for a reason. I’m trying my best not to be anxious for anything, to rest in you. And on the other hand, am I allowed to be excited about the fulfilment …
January 17, 2022 Sigh. Yahweh, what would have happened if I hadn’t said I would walk away? Where would I have been? UNTIL YOU SAY NO TO THE THING YOU WANT THE MOST, YOU HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO IN SPIRITUAL WARFARE. I walked away. Tears in my eyes. Bawling. But I walked away. …
January 17, 2022 Yahweh, thank you for life and relative health. I am alive and can meet with you. The weird pain from last night has moved and also reduced and it feels like there is a weird bubble in my ear. So I am thankful that the pain wasn’t/isn’t a heart attack or …
January 16, 2022 As the pastor said: TO HEAR FROM GOD YOU HAVE TO LIVE A LIFESTYLE OF EXPECTANCY To expect that at any point and anytime that God will speak to you. We aren’t going to always be the one initiating the conversation. Because relationships should not be one-sided. We need to be …
January 16, 2022 Why would he always die for us if he didn’t want to have a relationship with us? Three areas that block us from hearing God. Un-forgiveness – when we don’t forgive others it shows hate in our heart. Hate and love cannot live in the same place. (Yeah, I realised that …
JANUARY 16, 2022 SOLITUDE is the atmosphere for the SOUL It’s 3:30 something. I realized that I was fantasizing again (not that type of fantasy, behave yourself) and so got up, because it meant that I was not going back to sleep right now. (I need to figure out something for these black pens. I do …
January 15, 2022 It’s the end of another day. My eyes hurt. I think I read too much. Today was such a roller coaster of emotions for a period. Seeing Jeffers was really awesome and he got his gift: guess it didn’t stay here as long as I thought it would. Then hearing that OT …
January 15, 2022 Sigh. No one hugs the way he does. No lie, it’s the way I think your hugs would feel if I felt you in the physical. Keep him, Yahweh, safe please. Yes I miss him. I am so super thankful for the call you’ve made in my life. I know that because …
January 15, 2022 You are the air I breathe. I’m awake this early o’clock because of you. You woke me up with health and strength. I remember some years ago waking up with severe muscle pain that did not leave for months and affected me for years after. So I am thankful for waking up …
January 14, 2022 The truth is at this moment? I am sad. I don’t want to be. I do understand why things happened the way they do. I’m tempted to slap a smile on my face and move on, but that is part of what caused my previous disconnect: trying to pretend that I was …
