While there have been times I’ve said this grudgingly, in this moment it is truly my heart’s desire. I pray that I will always choose to let your will be done. I will remain in this place. I will grow in this place until you call me into something else. I will learn to love …
Today I finished shredding all the old paper journals. I cry a lot about loneliness in all of them. I’ve even asked Yahweh to take away the desire for a partner from me. Also the desire for a child. I’ve definitely mourned not having a child and I truly don’t want one at this age. …
As part of this journey, in addition to journalling, exercising, mindfulness, I will also take at least 30 minutes and sit in a public space. Can’t promise that it would be somewhere like the mall, but would start by the esplanade, instead of just sitting in my car with the windows up. This morning I …
You know what I am still amazed at? What we have been taught as Christians. We have been taught that we have to always be “happy.” We must not complain. Never show a face that things are not okay. BUT!! When we read the scriptures we see people sharing their emotions. You see people of …
So I have committed to this journey. Self-care, mental health and growth. This morning after devotion, I moved to music for 8 minutes. It felt good. So even though I’ll be hella lonely and isolated, I think I do need to live on my own for a while. I had baked brownies, they were for …
