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March 4, 2022

 

Today, for the first time in a while I felt uneasy. Slight resentment, weary. I truly do like my work, but there are days that just have me weary. I received several calls, emails for requests etc: things that I haven’t even been able to touch. Not to mention the people from meeting day and site visits to schedule. The problem isn’t even so much the magnitude of work, but that there’s a little to no support to actually get things done. And today when the toilet started to leak and the department responsible for fixing it was just “okay”. I literally felt myself deflate. I felt tired at that moment and to some extent even now. 

Do you know what I genuinely long for? Just being able to have support. Someone there to hold me at the end of the day. I feel tired. And then the website just giving problems even to log in! It just felt like too much today. I don’t want to fight up. I don’t want to be the strong one. Yahweh can you help me please? I can’t do this. I’m overwhelmed. Yahweh, I pray for your spirit over the office, the people in the office. Cleanse us and restore us to you. Cleanse that whole building and destroy any spirit that is not of you. 

Yahweh, thank you for your promises. Thank you for loving me. For calming my spirit (your spirit?). Thank you for your guidance and inspiration and for never giving up on me.

You are alpha and omega and it’s only because of you I live. You are truly an awesome God and you promise that all things work together for my good, no matter what I am going through. 

Romans 8:26 – At the same time the spirit also helps us in our weakness, because we don’t know how to pray for what we need. But the spirit intercedes along with our groans that cannot be expressed in words. 

Thank you for your help, I’m going to always be weak because I will always need your help. Thank you for showing me the way. Thank you for your love and for using every circumstance to build me into your image. To trust you and your promises.

It was too easy to fall back (even if just for a moment) into the idea that it is me alone to face everything. It’s not. You are here, not over there. You are such a comforter and a true support. Thank you for all that you’ve done, thank you for who you are. I love you. Like, love, love you. Thank you for holding me and never letting go. 

Romans 8: 38, 39 – I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love which Christ Jesus our Lord shows us. We can’t be separated by death or life, by angels or rulers, by anything in the present or anything in the future, by forces or powers in the world above or in the world below come on or by anything else in creation. 

Lol. Did you miss anything? Nope you didn’t and nothing. Not one thing, not even a straight line can separate us. Thank you for your much less love and thank you for your matchless grace. 

Yahweh, I pray for Antoinette. It was hard seeing her (on camera) today: I did not make her out. I pray that the case goes in her favour and by extension ours. Strengthen her in you. I also pray for Kell. Do you know his needs, and I know that he keeps things close to his vest, but he is your child. Show us how else we can support and help. Let your will be done in his life. 

 

TODAY’S THANKFUL TALLY

  1. A leaking toilet
  2. The case being postponed
  3. Being overwhelmed

Romans 8:28 – We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God – those who he has called according to his plan.

Since all things work together for my good, Imma start thanking Yahweh for what I perceive as bad also. Because at the end it will come together as he planned. 

 


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