ABOUT SOLITUDE
What prompted this? Like many stories, it started with heartbreak: with me loving someone and then having to make the very difficult decision to end the relationship as it was. It wasn’t an easy decision. I prayed about it, cried about it (mostly cried) and eventually when I took the step and ended the relationship, I heard Yahweh whisper, “Now it’s time for me and you.”
I knew I needed healing. I knew I needed help and I reached out to Yahweh. But simultaneously, I was thinking I just wanted to date randomly without purpose, something I had never done. But as I spent more time with Yahweh, I kept hearing Him saying, “Don’t worry, but I need you to be with me in this season. No distractions.” I needed to intentionally set aside time to spend with Yahweh. I was wavering between connection with those around me or solitude with Yahweh. And each day, the prompting came harder and eventually I surrendered. A year of solitude. Me and Yahweh. Being intentional about my time with Him, the way I would do with others.
But then He called me to go a step further. Seven days of praying and fasting. I was resistant to that too. But not for the reason(s) you may think. I am in the process of losing weight and I didn’t want the decision to fast be one that has an impact on my weight loss journey: in the sense that I may feel the need to fast to lose weight. But the Spirit kept repeating that I needed to do this. Weight loss may be a side effect, but that is not the purpose. So I also surrendered.
My journaling started in November 2021 and I will be sharing this journey with Yahweh for the next year. Uncensored. Yahweh. Me.
SOLITUDE: A state or situation in which you are alone because you want to be.
While it’s not possible for me to be alone all the time, I am choosing (probably for the first time) to embrace it. To actively seek moments alone. In nature. Away from others. To seek Yahweh. To learn about myself. To continue growing. To improve my mental health.
It’s weird to share a journey of solitude isn’t it? But you will see why this happened as you journey with me. (p.s. This is a literal recreation of my journal).
SIDEBAR: At times the local parlance of my country is used, which of course grammerly would try to change, but is ah we ting.
Also note: unless stated otherwise, the God’s Word translation is used for the scriptures
2023 Edit: Sometime in 2023, I started using the New Living Translation instead of the God’s Word translation. However, for continuity, the scripture links still goes to the God’s Word translation.
