January 11, 2023
Afternoon/Evening
I am monumentally thankful that I can hold my pen normally. Thank you for your grace and favour. For leading the way in all things. For being in control. Yahweh, how do I go deeper with you?
FROM DUSK
This week is strange for me. I have not “worked” every evening because of the hand. I did on Monday, but then Tuesday hit and today I’m still on “rest.” Haven’t been able to type up anything either since Monday. Tomorrow, I’m in Trinidad for work. One of the places is an icebox and I intend to wrap myself in layers and carry gloves. I not playing with that.
At the moment ,my hand feels like it is in a straight jacket. But!! I can write!! The way I usually hold my pen. Progress!!
TODAY’S THANKFUL TALLY
- Being able to write! Happy dance!
- Minor equipment being denied. This is a major rejoice in every thing moment.
- Yahweh’s grace and favour.
In everything give thanks. Today truly did nor have any major upheavals or decisions, but in everything I will give thanks. Thank you for today. Thank you for who you are. I will stand still and see the salvation of the Lord. See your salvation.
At odd moments I often feel sadness. It’s truly random but it basically amounts to: I feel like I’m behind. At work. In relationships. In the house. In ministry. Even having to stop this week from binding. And I’m choosing to acknowledge the feeling, but I’m not going to dwell on it. I’m choosing in the acknowledgement to remember that Yahweh is in control and everything is in your appointed time. In your time. Thank you for your appointed time even when it doesn’t make sense to me. But it doesn’t have to. I just have to trust you. I’m believing in your promises.
P.s. I’m okay with me not getting hugs right now, but I am definitely covering up my need. Help me to endure until your time.
At 9:35 pm, I took up my phone to set my alarm for the morning and I saw a message from Angie saying she was sending me a warm hug. Thank you. Yes, I am okay, but I am thankful for receiving a hug even if it’s a virtual one. Thank you, you’re making me cry btw.
